Wednesday, December 23, 2009

لبنان الجميل

فكرنى صوت فيروز ببيروت ، مكنتش فاكرة انى ممكن اروح لبنان و اشوف سويسرا الشرق رغم ظروفها الغير مستقرة و كمان كنت حامل فى الشهر الخامس و كماااااااان فضلنا هناك شهر بحاله، و عشان الحياه مليانه مفاجئات قابلت صاحبتى إيللى ما بشفهاش فى مصر هناك فى بيروت.... لو كنت عارفه إنى حكتب عن رحلة بيروت كنت جبت الصور على فلاشاية من على الكمبيوتر بتاعى ايللى فى المانيا.... من احلى الأوقات ايللى قضيتها كانت فى بيروت، رغم انها كانت رحلة شغل لزوجى و كنت قاعده فى الأوتيل معظم النهار طبعا على غير عادتى انى منزلش و افضل فى الأوتيل لحد بعد نص النهار بشويه لكن عشان الدنيا كانت حر جدااااااااااااااااااااااااا و مكنتش اقدر استحمل الحر و انا حامل، لكن اول ما زوجى كان بيخلص شغله ايللى كان فى وسط البلد كنت بنزل و اروح اقابله هناك فى وسط البلد، اركب تاكسى و اتفرج على شوارع بيروت الجميله، و يا سلام بأة لما يعرف السواق انى مصرية! يفضل يتكلم السواق عن مصر و يسألنى انا منين من مصر و يسألنى إن كانت لبنان عجبتنى و لا لأ و لو قلت آة طبعا لبنان بلد جميله يرد و يقول ان لبنان مش مؤنث يعنى لازم اقول : لبنان بلد جميل مش جميله :) الحقيقه الناس هناك بيحبوا الحياه فعلا و طبعا السيدات و البنات فعلا بيتفننوا انهم يجملوا نفسهم و مدلعين نفسهم على الآخر، على فكرة بيروت فيها شبه كبير من إسكندريه انا قصدى المنطقه بتاعت الكرنيش لكن الجبال هناك روعه و رغم انى شفت جبال قبل كده لكن فى بيروت كان ليها طعم و احساس تانى مش حنسى طبعا لما ركبت التلفريك من اعلى الجبل لحد تحت خالص و الخوف ايللى كنت خايفاه رغم المناظر الجميله و طبعا زوجى استغل الموقف اسوأ استغلال و فضل يخوف فيّا و يضحك عليّا و عقدنى فى التليفريكات اساسا لدرجة اننا لما رحنا سويسرا بعد ما ولدت ما كنتش عايزة فى الأول انى اركب التلفريك بسببه! بس ركبته فى الآخر طبعا! المهم من الحاجات ايللى بفتكرها فى رحلة بيروت و اضحك لما مرة كنت نازله من الأوتيل و فجأه لقيت دبابه ماشيه فى الشارع طبعا اترعبت و قلت يا نهار اسود الحرب قامت !!!! كلمت زوجى بسرعه لكن ما ردش عليّا فاضطريت انى اركب برده التاكسى و اروح وسط البلد و طبعا فى سرى فضلت اقول فى سرى ايه ايللى انا عاملته فى نفسى ده انا ايه ايللى جابنى البلد ديه مانا كنت قاعده فى بيتى وقلت احنا خلاص مش راجعين تانى و مش حفرح بالبيبى و اربيه و فضلت متوتره لحد ما وسلط و قابت زوجى و قلتله ما صدقنيش و قاللى عادى عادى ماتخفيش! المهم وسط البلد ديه بأه حكايه تانيه.... تلاقى الكافيهات فى شارع كبير عند ميدان اسمه ميدان الساعه الشارع طويل و مقفول مش بتدخله العربيات و طبعا تشم ريحة الشيشه فى كل مكان و للأسفو كانت هى ديه اكتر حاجه دايقتنى فى لبنان بصراحه ! نرجع تانى لموضوع الدبابه ... مره كنا ماشيين على الكرنيش و كالعاده انا متحمسه و هاريه نفسى تصوير بالكاميرا و عدينا الشارع و طلب زوجى اصوره جنب تمثال جمال عبدالناصر فجأه لقينا عدد من الدبابات ماشى فى الشارع الرئيسى قدام عنينا و مافيش بيننا و بينهم متر، طبعا انا قلت بسسسس يبقى خلاص واضح ان فيه حالة طوارىء فى البلد و اننا فعلا الله يرحمنا و مش حعيش و اربى البيبى لكن قلت بما ان الكاميرا معايا كده كده يبقى لازم اصور الدبابات و فجأه و انا بصور لقيت العساكر ايللى فى الدبابه عمالين يعملولنا باى باى و يضحكولنا عشان بصورهم كانت حاجه آخر كوميديا و عرفت بعد كده ان ديه حاجه عاديه ان الجيش يتمشى بالدبابات فى الشارع ! يا خسارة فعلا كان نفسى انزل الصورة ديه على الموضوع ده بس مش مشكله ملحوقه لما ارجع ان شاء الله المانيا حنزلها... و دلوقتى حسيبكم مع صوت فيروز الجميل و استنونى عشان اكمل كلام عن زيارتى للبنان الجميله.... قصدى لبنان الجميل :))))) استنونى قريبا

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

مصر الحبيبه ما زلتى جميله

لا اشبه نفسى من قريب او من بعيد بأحد من الكتاب الكبار فأنا مجرد انسانه تعبر عن نفسها و عن مشاعرها عن طريق الكتابة احيانا و لكن عندما شاهدت حوارا للكاتب سعيد الكفراوى على المصرية الفضائية و هو يحكى عن تجربته عندما سافر الى الخارج تحديدا المملكه السعوديه لم يتمكن من كتابة اى شىء طوال فترة بقائه هناك رغم طول المده و ذكر شيئا لمسته بنفسى و هو انه لم يشعر بأى الهام او لم يستطيع ان يبدع فى الغربه بعيدا عن هذا البلد مصر
و لم يخص نفسه فقط بل جمع و قال انا او اى احد فى الغربة فتذكرت نفسى قبل ان اسافر الى المانيا و كيف كنت اشعر اننى اريد ان اكتب الكثير و انه كانت تهبط على رأسى الكثير و الكثير من الآلهامات و الأفكار و انا فى مصر و فى كل مرة اذهب فى اجازه الى مصر كما انا الان تهبط على الأفكار و الهم بشكل غريب و اشعر اننى اريد ان اكتب مئات الأشعار و الخواطر

مصر الحبيبة ما زلتى جميلة كما كنت و ستظلين دائما مهما حاولت ان ابعد عنك او ان اهرب منك

Monday, November 16, 2009

to my blog reader




Dear my blog reader,

you don't know how much browsing my blog means to me.
it makes me happy like a small child
Thank you @}--;----

Sunday, November 15, 2009

hope ..... can we live without it?! hopefully not!!!

hopefully i hope that hope will stay in hope for the hope of a better hope that hopes for a hope which leads to a greater hope.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

My novel


Although i wrote nothing today in my novel but i feel that i am filled with poetry, totally inspired.

why didn't i write anything today, The idea of having a dead line to complete the 50,000 words by the end of november scares me, i had never been good in dead lines, sometimes it gives me the feeling of blocking, but to say the truth it helped me to start writing again and encouraged me to reach these number of words.

I enjoyed writing it so much, i fell in love with the characters, as if they are alive, flesh and blood.
They are everyday shaping and growing, their feelings, their sadness, their happiness, their self discovery, just like me, i feel that i discover myself with them while writing.

Those are the main characters of my novel, they are:

1- Mohra
2- Zahra
3- Ali
4- Yousef

the other characters:

5- Laila
6- Mahmoud
7- Ibrahim

The events of the novel are between Egypt and Germany.
I don't want to talk yet about the events, but it's a story of love, hope, fear, courage, truthfulness and faith.

From all my heart i wish to finish it till the end even after November.
And who knows, maybe it will be a published novel one day. ( amen )

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My dream


Wherever you are
i will follow you
no more fear, no more escaping,
i'll keep watching you
while you're shaping

and when i hold you
with my both hands
i will never let you go
wherever you are
i will follow you

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Hot chocolate cup for inspiration


The utmost happiness is my real sadness
The real sadness is my utmost happiness
the pain is my only numbness
the stillness is my only energy
my creativity source is dumbness
the craziness is my real sanity
how could all these things be
if they really aren't???
- Mai what is this ?!!!!
-This is a poem.
-you must be out of your mind!
- Noooooo ! i just had a great cup of hot chocolate!!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Frankfurt book fair 2009 ( a dream came true )

At last my dream came true! finally i attended the Frankfurt book fair 2009 which was opened for the public on the 17th and 18th of October., and China was the guest of Honour for this year.


It was huuuuuuuuuge and amazing in the same time.
What was so wonderful that i met personaly the international publishers´s sales guys which i was dealing with when i used to work in Cairo as a sales coordinator in a publishing agency.
And i met my old colleagues in addition my Boss called me right after sending him an sms wishing to see him in the fair, he was so nice and he had the intention to meet me and my husband.


When i saw the partitions of all the publishers that i used to deal with i got crazy! my husband kept laughing about me!

Random House
Scholastic
Harper collins
McGraw-Hill
Nelson Thornes
Cambridge University press
Penguin Group
Faber & Faber

I met authors who signed their books for me, each time i visited a publisher they gave me books for free! the most important book was a book for the writer who won the Literature Nobel Prize 2009 Herta Müller, she´s a german but from Romanian origion, so i was so excited cause i was born in Romania and i live in Germany now and i really wished to see her and have her signature but she attended the fair in the first couple of days before i travel to Frankfurt.

I left the fair with lots of books like:

Nadirs ( Herta Müller )
The Children of Dust ( Ali Eteraz )
Writing Down the Bones ( Natalie Goldberg)
Think Before it´s too late (Edward De Bono)
The Wilding(Maria McCann)
Parrot & Oliver in America (Peter Carey)
The Woman who shot Mussolini ( Frances Stonor Saunders)
The Golden Apple ( EdgarJ.Ridley)
Egypt after Mubarak ( Bruce K. Rutherford )

I also bought the first baby book for my baby and i got the other as a present from my friend in the publisher Scholastic, Thank you Michelle :)))))

ahhhh all this happened in Frankfurt!!!! but to say the truth i didn´t like Frankfurt the city at all, i found Munich much much much more beautiful, thank god that i live in Munich.
But the hotel was so nice and the people working there were even nicer, they all played with my baby specialy at breakfast time!

Well, still there are a lot to tell about the Frankfurt book fair but i´m sure that all those who attended the fair have more different stories which i would like to know.



i will download more pictures soon...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

NaNoWriMo


Oh my god!!! i will do it !!!

InshaAllah i will be a Nanowrimo participant.

and it stands for National Novel Writing Month.

In November for 30 days i should write everyday and finish at least a 50,000 words novel.

will i beat all these ideas and characters fighting in my head and finally put them on paper?!!!!

Ahhhhh i wish i will!!!!!!!!!!

My husband will help me i know, but i should let my baby sleep one hour earlier.

Please come November, i wanna be busy writing !

( phewwwwwwwww)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

The story of the unclean glass


جاء المساء فنام الجميع إلا احلام الحالمين
أحلاما قد أبت ان تنعس او ترقد مثل الراقدين

The glass was crystal clear and clean, why did the man doubt in its clarity?!!!!!!!
he kept pointing to the clean glass and touching it by his hands saying: it's unclean, it's unclear....
he kept doing this many times, touching it by his hands saying it's unclean, it's unclear...

until the glass became really unclear and unclean by the cause of his hands!

but the rain fell on the glass again, and made it even brighter and shiner than it was !

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Today´s learned wisdom


If people were to listen to others´ advices, no one would have done a single mistake and no one would have ever learned by himself.... so nobody would have ever found someone to advise him !


- Mai Daader -
( 19-8-09 )

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

My Life Between Cairo & Munich

Cairo Map:Munich Map:

What to say and from where to start? it´s a tale of two cities; Cairo and Munich.
Cairo, the city where i spent my childhood, my teenagehood and my youthhood, with all what these stages hold of memories.

Munich, the place where i started a completely new stage of life, marriage and motherhood and although it started since 2 years, ifeel that it´s a whole lifetime.

Cairo and Munich, the most lovable cities to my heart.

To be continued......